Ever wonder why Wal-mart seems to be fully of crazy kids, mainly toddlers and infants? It seems like every when one starts crying, they all start. I remember saying I'd never have a kid like that. Oh boy was I wrong.
Mikah and I had a glorious Tuesday. It was filled with tantrums, quick decisions, and anxiety. He missed his nap. That one little crucial part of his day was missed and now I have an aching hip because of it. I love my son, I really do. I also love being a mother. Although, when my days are like that, I am IMMENSELY happy for bed time. Then I remember that bed time can also be stressful. Moms really have no breaks. That's when Mikah does something like flashes an award winning smile at me or cuddles under the covers with his "Mama" and I suddenly forget the reason for being so fed up in the first place.
When he does things like that, I am immediately calmed and am able to assess the situation. It's because I love him and no matter how hard it gets, I can make it through. Something fires through my synapses and I can see that 2 hours ago Mikah was acting more well-behaved than I was. I am then suddenly guilt ridden and am able to see the "bigger picture".
So I am glad that I have that "Wal-Mart kid" because he's not always like that. Heck, today he was waving at complete strangers. If it's good all the time then I'll forget the bad times. Yea, I know that just sounded crazy, but hear me out. If there are no problems in life then you never have to fix anything. If you never have to fix anything you never learn, never grow. A little ordered chaos in life is a good thing. Mikah happens to be mine. I have to keep my emotions in check or else, how would I be able to teach him? The "bigger picture" is him.
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