First off, remember me griping about having to pay for MY medical records? Yea, well, I got them for free. Yea! I had decided to go with my doctor's office since it was cheaper. I get up there and the nurse prints off Ein's and Mikah's medical report. Everything leading up to delivery, all except Mikah's c-section report. I tell her a little bit of why I wanted them so I think this was just her being compassionate and for that I'm very grateful.
There was a lot of numbers, blacked out and deleted notes that I didn't understand but there was enough information that I feel I can finally gain confirmation and closure. For real this time. I don't have to just let-it-go and instead just completely let-go... If that makes sense.
Starting at around 16 weeks, in the doctor's notes, I had notified her of lower abdominal, lower back, and hip pain. And also at almost every appointment after until I had him. Kind of peeved that I wasn't checked, but to my doctor's credit, I also brushed it off as pains from my Fibromyalgia. According to blood work and lab tests I also had a mild case of Gestational Diabetes and Hypertension. This I didn't know. I guess, since my appointment was supposed to be that Monday after I had Ein, I would have found out. Still, wouldn't have been good to know for Mikah's pregnancy.
In Ein's c-section report, the doctor states that when my bag of waters were busted the fluid was stained with meconium, a baby's first stool; a black, tar-like stool passed shortly after birth or sometimes even while mother is overdue or in labor. Can also be a sign of distress. I believe if I hadn't gone into labor this might have had an adverse effect on his little body such as breathing it in or causing infections
. Further along in the c-section notes it is typed out that they classified me as anemic because I had lost 800 cc of blood. I'm pretty sure 1000 cc is cause for an emergency though because it didn't state that I needed blood transfusions or anything and the report said that I was in stable condition. Thinking back about it now, that's probably why I felt like crap the last few weeks. I was so miserable.
In Mikah's reports I found the Urinalysis of the 24-protein evaluation of my urine that I had never gotten back because I had him that morning. It showed that I did have Pre-E. It wasn't too high and probably could have been induced had I pushed it but I would have had to have Mikah in the next few days at the rate the protein levels were rising. This also confirms the cause behind the really nasty headache I had in the hospital a couple of days after Mikah was born. I had already been hooked up to Magnesium a few hours after birth but probably needed more.
So yea, that's pretty much it. I do have IC (incompetent cervix) and I really need to lose weight if I want to have another baby. I really don't want to have all these problems and risk losing another child's life. Yesterday morning I cried telling Ein that had it been me I would have never chosen him over my own life but that I was thankful for Mikah's. Sometimes it seems like a double-edged sword. A lose-lose situation, but then I look at Mikah and know that, if I could turn back time, I would not be able to erase him from my life.
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